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this journal 
Sorrow The time to fall!
hard!
until rock bottom and your worthless human body collide in an explosion of blood and chaosssss...
Man guys, school is coming in a week, my laptop is STILL broken, my parents are STILL getting a divorce and now i might have to have my dogs all put to sleep cause they got out last night im being plagued with problematic bitches for now and forever, it seems, trying to destroy the one relationship i would certainly like to hold on to for more than the next 6 months... HMM.
its like taking everything of value to any human, love and family and money, definitely, and school; its like a ton of things just got sent on a huge path and although they're bad now i have this feeling that things have yet to hit any fans!
This is very troubling to me, you see, and theres very little i can do about it!
Sigh.
Kind of ranty? But the point of all this was really just to tell you that now that schools finally chunking into the mix that i probably wont be posting much of anything
ALSOOO..
If you're doing a trade with me i wanted to further remind you that with my computer broken as it is i may not be able to get to any digital trades or commissions for a looong while, so be prepared to refresh my memory on what i was going to draw for you at some point in the future XD
Commissions, trades and junk are closed for now
I just want to draw depressing things and i cant even do that, i hate the way things work so much sometimes, ups and downs and then the end.
I hope things get better for you in the end.
As for the art-trades, you don't *have* to do mine in digital. Ever since I saw your traditional colored art, I've been fond of those as well. If I can't get a digital, I'd be willing to have you do it traditionally. Though, I have yet to know which of my characters you are doing or any details! XD
Plus I might be able to persuade you to send me the original so I can hang it in my living room for all to see!
OH! And if you want me to send you the one I did for you, can you please note me your address? I'll send it as soon as I'm able.
The thing that helped me most was just talking to each parent and finding out their side of the story, it made me feel better going through it knowing why it happened. I think having someone to listen to them also helped them out as well, I know they had a few moments when they realized something they hadn't before, but by then, it was too late because the divorce was already final. That's when I found out that these authoritative, idol-like parent figures i was living with my whole life appeared to be very human (they always hid emotions and thoughts from me before this, since "i was just a kid and didn't need to know/see it").
I hope you dont feel you are alone and if you move out of your house, i hope its quick and painless (i know that moving day was when the divorce was most real for me). Having parents at two separate houses is inconvenient sometimes, but on the bright side, you get to really find out who they are as individuals. They seemed to blossom as people after the divorce, as if they were free to do whatever they wanted because one didnt have to worry about what the other would say. They have changed for the better, and unlike before, I'm really getting to know who they are. At this point they also stopped seeing me as a kid and learn to confide in me better, like a friend.
I hope what I say doesn't frighten you.. I just want to show you that its kinda weird at first, but there are some good things that can come out of it too. My parents are a perfect example of a GOOD divorce, and that there is such a thing. So, just hang in there.
I'm sure they will.
Don't you worry at all about my art trade. Psh, you don't even have to finish it. I don't want to put more stress on you.
Egh, I start school tomorrow. D=